Replaced

I don't know how to describe the feelings I feel,

but here's what i think, for once something real.

I hate that I never see you, I hate that we're never alone,

I hate the way I feel, and that you don't feel the same.

For you've someone else now, and i feel i'm not needed,

Where was he a few months back, when everything was so good.

For now I feel replaced, I feel I dont matter,

And everyday it breaks my heart, for now I feel alone.

You tell me, 'it's a one way street', but how can I

help if I get nothing but silence when I daily ask.

Too many nights spent sleepless, 

Too many nights spent wondering, what did I do wrong?

I think about the future, and wonder how long I've got,

Before I'm condemned to the odd text, and you never want to see me.

I know I've been out of things, but it's something I can't help,

I'm still getting over you drunkly saying, "I've gone through so much for you"

For that's the last thing I ever wanted, to hurt you,

although I felt that it was inevitable, I'm a hard person to like.

How wierd it feels that I will still do anything for you,

Whilst I feel so upset, I just want the best for you.

So while you spend your time with the recurring friend,

I will sit quietly and pray for time to mend,

whatever problems we have, for you refuse to reply,

to the meaningful apologies, penned by my heart.

When we're out together, and we used to be close,

You now turn your attention unto another,

Leaving me onthe fringes, kicked to the curb,

Praying for a miracle, that youll want to see me again.

Worst of all I do not blame you, for finding someone else,

I only feel sorrow for myself, selfish I know. 

For you mean so much to me, and i seemingly nothing now to you,

And i am left wondering, Whatever did i do?a